Tell Me What You See
It seems that once again I am left wanting to post but nothing extremely provocative or entertaining comes to mind. Thus I will just write what comes to my head and we'll have to see what you think, that is if I'm not the only one reading this. However I do know that even if nobody else reads this a fellow named Nathan will, and no I am not talking about myself.
It's strange to imagine that it is already the middle/end of January and my first year of University is nearly over. It's definitely been a change for me coming from high school where I could do no work and still get 90's and high 80's and I'd be upset with myself if I did not achieve those because well as the school system pounds into your head day in and day out "you need good grades to go to university".
Well it's amazing what has happened to me once I got here, I stopped caring. Several examples being, I haven't done any of my readings since like early October, although I've been trying to change that lately. I skip class like no tomorrow, which is odd because I never skipped class in high school, that's not to say I didn't have other ingenious ways of getting out of class. Lastly, my marks have seen the typical 15 percent drop in average but mine is closer to 20 percent and I honestly don't care. The biggest example of this was my philosophy exam, I failed with a 46% and I didn't care. That was the first thing I have ever failed and it didn't faze me one bit, if I got that in high school I would have been freaking even if it was only worth 1.32%.
All of these different factors have made me realize that although moving away from home has been great and I want to continue living in London, I have no desire to be in school. I'm sick of being graded based upon the opinion of some graduate TA who could care less what I have to say. I just need to get out of school for awhile, away from the constant pressure to achieve the "holy degree" that will get me the job that will give me a career. Hell, I have a job at the moment where I could make 75 to 80 thousand a year without a degree but you know what I also don't feel like being trapped on a shipping boat for eight months of the year. I mean it wouldn't matter if I was trapped on a boat for that long because nobody would notice I was gone but it's just a fact that I'd miss out on many concerts and the occasional friendly gathering.
I will however do the job for the summer so I can make money to move back to London come late September or early October and then I can find a job that I will enjoy but won't make much money doing. That job that I hope to find once I move back to London is working at any type of music store whether it be the main ones like HMV, Sunrise, Musicworld, or some little local store. I honestly think that would make me happy and that's what I want my year off school to do make me happy, possibly meet somebody along the way and be happy.
Everyone is afraid I won't return to school if I take a year off, is that really a bad thing if I'm happy I don't think so, but I still plan on getting my degree sometime in my lifetime who says I have to have one by the time I'm 24, only mainstream culture but you know what although I buy into many things of the mainstream, there's also so many things that are wrong with it and the biggest in my mind is the reliance upon religion. One day I will sit down and write about why I have lost my faith in religion, not that I had much to begin with, since for as long as I can remember I would always try to sleep in as late as possible on Sundays so I could avoid going at any cost, it usually always failed cause I could never sleep in at such a young age and if I did my dad would be sure to wake me up.
Well it's Friday night and my goal was to accomplish some work tonight but yet again it hasn't happened cause I don't care but I think I might force myself to read some of my film readings since I have a test on Wednesday. Have a good one.
It's strange to imagine that it is already the middle/end of January and my first year of University is nearly over. It's definitely been a change for me coming from high school where I could do no work and still get 90's and high 80's and I'd be upset with myself if I did not achieve those because well as the school system pounds into your head day in and day out "you need good grades to go to university".
Well it's amazing what has happened to me once I got here, I stopped caring. Several examples being, I haven't done any of my readings since like early October, although I've been trying to change that lately. I skip class like no tomorrow, which is odd because I never skipped class in high school, that's not to say I didn't have other ingenious ways of getting out of class. Lastly, my marks have seen the typical 15 percent drop in average but mine is closer to 20 percent and I honestly don't care. The biggest example of this was my philosophy exam, I failed with a 46% and I didn't care. That was the first thing I have ever failed and it didn't faze me one bit, if I got that in high school I would have been freaking even if it was only worth 1.32%.
All of these different factors have made me realize that although moving away from home has been great and I want to continue living in London, I have no desire to be in school. I'm sick of being graded based upon the opinion of some graduate TA who could care less what I have to say. I just need to get out of school for awhile, away from the constant pressure to achieve the "holy degree" that will get me the job that will give me a career. Hell, I have a job at the moment where I could make 75 to 80 thousand a year without a degree but you know what I also don't feel like being trapped on a shipping boat for eight months of the year. I mean it wouldn't matter if I was trapped on a boat for that long because nobody would notice I was gone but it's just a fact that I'd miss out on many concerts and the occasional friendly gathering.
I will however do the job for the summer so I can make money to move back to London come late September or early October and then I can find a job that I will enjoy but won't make much money doing. That job that I hope to find once I move back to London is working at any type of music store whether it be the main ones like HMV, Sunrise, Musicworld, or some little local store. I honestly think that would make me happy and that's what I want my year off school to do make me happy, possibly meet somebody along the way and be happy.
Everyone is afraid I won't return to school if I take a year off, is that really a bad thing if I'm happy I don't think so, but I still plan on getting my degree sometime in my lifetime who says I have to have one by the time I'm 24, only mainstream culture but you know what although I buy into many things of the mainstream, there's also so many things that are wrong with it and the biggest in my mind is the reliance upon religion. One day I will sit down and write about why I have lost my faith in religion, not that I had much to begin with, since for as long as I can remember I would always try to sleep in as late as possible on Sundays so I could avoid going at any cost, it usually always failed cause I could never sleep in at such a young age and if I did my dad would be sure to wake me up.
Well it's Friday night and my goal was to accomplish some work tonight but yet again it hasn't happened cause I don't care but I think I might force myself to read some of my film readings since I have a test on Wednesday. Have a good one.
