Irrelevant Benevolence

Another week has come and gone
Passed by the days
Another failed attempt at waking the dead
Basically seeing the future
But not what's really there
The song plays over and over
Nobody cares
We argue the past teaches us a lesson
No one can remember
Look at your hands and see what they've done
Age is irrelevant to the stories
Truth is benevolent
Some will die without regret or fear
No chance there
Listen to the lyrics
Decipher all the meanings in your brain
the only line we all can believe
Fare thee well
Until it's once again time to dream

It's amazing how a simple walk can make you feel relieved. I stood on the bridge with University College and the moon standing beautifully to my left and below me the Thames River moving so gracefully below. I was on that bridge for probably twenty minutes standing there thinking about anything and everything that came to mind and believe me there was a lot of things. I can't say I'm surprised by anything anymore. Well I would be surprised by one thing but it's something I'm sure I will one day conquer and defeat. I left out the word hope because that has got me nowhere so far. Hope with me has seen its fair share of opportunities with nothing to show so I don't trust in hope anymore. Who knows if I even trust myself anymore, I've done nothing to prove success and no desire to follow through with anything. I did however learn a truth I already knew. That being I am who I am and if I die with only two good friends then I should be a happy man.