...And You Will Know Us By The Trail of Dead

Another disaster has struck and caused yet another "devastating tragedy". As I sit and think about what has happened over in Asia, my thoughts on the issue may lead some of you to believe I'm heartless and a bastard but that's nothing I haven't heard before.

So as I watch the news and hear people that come over to my house say it's a "devastating tragedy" over and over and how they feel like they should help. Although I highly doubt that any of these people actually will. I sit thinking to myself...yes nearly 80, 000 people have died over in Asia but this has absolutely no affect on how I feel or the way I act. It's a fact of life that people will die, sometimes lots of people will die all at once. I am sorry to those who have lost loved ones and to those of you are now homeless but I have no control over what happens and I'm not about to dwell on the fact that mother nature has killed lots of people, look what we have done to the world, it's only fair.

Also, this might be a blessing in disguise for those nations because many of the nations that were hit are struggling from overpopulation, thus a large number of deaths in such a short period might help to slow the progression, although still highly unlikely. As for those who were killed in the tsunami as means of population control no one can argue that the poor or the rich were killed off because a tidal wave does not pick and choose who survives. And yes I do realize that the hardest hit areas are poor areas.

As time progresses on this event will disappear from our minds except when we read it in textbooks as one of the worlds largest natural disasters and those countries will recover to what they were before and life will carry on, thus I shall not be worrying myself to sleep about this situation. As to those of you who think I have no decency towards human rights, I just ask you what are you doing to help? If you are helping out in some way other than writing about it on your blog, then I applaud you and I hope it makes you sleep well at night.

Also, as a sidenote, since some Americans have been killed in this tsunami does that mean George Bush will now be starting war on the Geological Plates that lie at the bottom of the Indian Ocean?

London Calling

After several attempts of starting this post about how Christmas didn't feel like Christmas I decided that nobody really wants to hear about that anymore since the day has come and gone. Now that all the festivities are over, besides New Years, I find myself longing for the return of January so I can return to London.

Is it bad that I already want to leave my house so soon? I mean I like my family, that's not the problem (most of the time) but I just find St.Catharines very bland and boring now that I have experienced living somewhere else and the freedom I have when I live alone.

Now I feel like I should write something compelling, artful or intelligently interesting but at the moment my mind is absolutely empty, except for this one thing which I can't seem to shake out of my head and is partially the reason why I want to return to London so soon, but don't worry it's a good thing.

So I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and I'm sure most of you will be partying hard on New Years which again to me is just another uneventful day to me. And I can't believe Regis Philbin will be dropping the ball in New York at Times Square suffice to say if I was one to watch all the New Years shows I will definitely not be watching Penis Philbin as I cannot stand his non-chalant arrogance.

Anyways, I must get back to listening to two amazing CD's I purchased today and I highly recommend checking out:

Goodnight Nobody - Julie Doiron
Misery Is A Butterfly - Blonde Redhead

Myself As A Song Title

I was bored and don't have much to say at this moment so why not describe myself with what I love...

Bands // Song Titles
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Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:	Pearl Jam
Are you female or male:	Dead Man
Describe yourself:	Nothingman
How do some people feel about you:	Dissident
How do you feel about yourself:	Get Right
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:	Soon Forget
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:	Alone
Describe where you want to be:	In The Moonlight
Describe what you want to be:	Love Boat Captain
Describe how you live:	Thumbing My Way
Describe how you love:	Last Kiss
Share a few words of wisdom:	Do The Evolution
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Christmas Break!

Well I just finished my last exam about an hour ago and it went alright, borderline failing but I think with a nice bell curve i'll hit the 50% mark. Anyways, I'm heading home tomorrow so this blog may remain un-updated for the next two weeks or so.

Happy Holidays and Happy New Years!

The Fading of Christmas

As I sit here in silence, well I'm silent but I have the Stars album Set Yourself On Fire playing in the background, I've began realize that I'm for the first time since moving to London that I'm looking forward to going home and I'm excited for Christmas.

I miss everything that occurs before christmas, such as the christmas specials, which I haven't been able to watch since my tv is broken, as well there is decorating the house and christmas tree. The absence of these things in my life has made me desire the experience of christmas all the more.

As we grow older, the month of December seems to come and go all the more quickly since the traditions and beliefs change as people now longer live in the house, or have stopped going to church, and the knowledge that Santa Claus is not real. The only time that the joy of Christmas will be truly regained is when we start a new family with children of our own and for me that is still a long ways away. So in an attempt to bring some sort of festivity into my few remaining days here in London before heading home I have been trying to watch as many Christmas shows that I can download off of UWgo since like I mentioned earlier, my tv is broken. This has made me realize how much more enjoyable childhood really is because at that age you still have absolutely everything to believe in where as now I'm beginning to lose hope in almost every aspect of life. That is not to say that I don't enjoy myself now, I just can't help but wonder what is doing all this stuff for anyways if everything we do it for is nothing at all.

I think honestly the only two good parts of life are being a child and being old, the inbetween is just filled with crap. Sure there is love and having children and all that stuff in between but it's only truly cherished once you are old. So I can't wait til the day that I am 65 and can just sit back and enjoy the company of my wife and watch the joy in our grandchildren's faces as they eagerly await the arrival of Santa, the Easter Bunny and just everything about life.

Anyways I don't really know what I'm writing about or trying to say anymore so I will leave you with a poem written by my friend Erin, who I have not talked to in close to a year but I'm going to try and get in contact with when I get to St.Catharines cause I'm interested to see if she is engaged yet. Anyways, I really like this poem that she wrote back in OAC writers craft I believe, so I guess its about 4 years old now but i think it sort of reiterates a bit of what I was trying to say earlier on in the post.

The Eyes of Innocence

I wish I could see the world through the eyes of a child
I would no longer be blind
My eyes open wide to my surroundings, aware and focused
Nothing would be clouded, but clear
Black and white, no grey would exist
Innocence would lead my conscience
Instead of stereotypes and hypocrisies
The truth as my guide
What a wonderful way to look at the world
As it is,
And not what we make it

--Erin Metcalfe

The Bastardism of MSN

Tonight I have no inspiring poetry to write so I've decided to discuss something else that has come to my attention after spending hours and hours sitting on a computer and using msn messenger as basically my only means of communication.

The first and foremost thing I have noticed is that I am always the one initiating conversations, with the exception of my good buddy Nate. I have no problems being the initiator of a conversation most of the time but being the initiator nearly 100% of the time soon makes one wonder whether or not they are being a nuisance or the person they are saying hello to even wants to speak to you at all. The problem that has arisen when I've asked several different people about this has produced rather similar answers.

Most of the feedback I have gotten is from people of the opposite sex and the answer most have given me and the rest I have just inferred is that as much as they may want to talk to a certain individual they won't say hello out of fear that they are being bothersome. That response is similar to my initial thoughts except my worry comes from whether I initiate conversations to much and theirs comes from not even starting them at all.

So first off, my belief that is if you are signed into messenger or any other IM service then you accept the fact that people are going to start talking to you, even if you are on away or busy, if you can't accept this fact then why did you even sign into messenger. Now that's not to say I won't respect people who if I say hello to when their status is set to something other than online and they respond to me saying they are busy then I will totally respect that and politely stop talking to them.

Now that I have established the fact that if you are signed in that it means you are willing to accept people talking to you, this means that you girls and guys who really want to talk to somebody but don't want to be bothersome just SAY hello and if the person is not able to talk to you then most likely they will let you know that it is not the best time, but they now know that you want to talk to them; or you may be presently surprised and find that the individual appreciates you starting the conversation rather than them initiating the conversation 100% of the time.


Therefore, if those who never say hello begin to say hello; the people who are always initiating the conversations will not have to worry that they are being bothersome and annoying for saying hello too much. While the non-hello people will be surprised at how many more conversations they will actually have with those people they want to talk to but are afraid to initiate a conversation with.

Let's Remember The Last of the Ghetto Astronauts

Well I've decided that my fascination with livejournal is growing weary so it's time to try something new and with my friend Paige's blog being so entertaining I figured I might as well give her choice of blog a try. As for my ramblings, I don't really have much to say right now so I'll try and write something off the top of my head that is totally irrelevant to anything.

Safer Than Today

Take the day and rape the morning.
It always fucks you.
Let's chase away religion.
It's the only reason we believe.
This belief is not safe.
This disguise can't breathe, suffocate's her identity.
An identity we dare not speak.
She always looks confused.
Bring this rose to the grave.
It's all that I could find.
She won't mind, it's just a flower anyways.
It will be dead and gone before her body is done.
The reason for this is she's still alive.
Except for her mind.
She's on permanent holiday.
Probably in a safer place than today.
Put her in a field where she can run.
Only she won't move until the sun is gone.
The night is her only friend.
She can scream and never be seen.
Yet silently she remains.
The reason for this is she's still alive.
Except for her mind. She once said.
Take the day and rape the morning.
It always fucks you.